Ask me again and I’ll try to refrain

from feeding you lies that I use to explain

When i’m meeting you here with my hands in the air

I’m not doing justice, I’m just doing what I can bear

Shaken awake to my gruesome mistake

The flames at my feet like a witch at the stake

You said “Tell us the truth, here’s your chance to deny”

But I couldn’t answer, much less look you back in the eye

I used you as my alibi

Said “there’s nothing to see, the real victim is me”

It’s just when i bare my soul, the world it bares its teeth

I hid from the fight like a little kid might

Cause words are so harmless: all tongue and no bite

Or so i had thought and then to my surprise

The sentiment lingered and festered inside

And then a blow to the head, and I fell to the side

A monument toppled, years of my life flashing by

Well I tried my best to cover it

But you cannot hide the depth of fault lines

When plates start to shake and it breaks the last straw in my spine

But an eye for an eye

You know what it does to your mind

Any song I could write

It’s only a pick in the ice

I’ll make my bed, there I shall lie

The graveyard I’ve passed by a thousand times

Out of sight, out of mind

The promise i make knowing I can’t make things right

When I get out of this house

I’ll give a dog a bone

Freedom from the leash

This keep I call a home

But as of right now

I am stuck in the shackles

I am too weak

To put up with the battle

Even outside

Well I run in the shadows

Waiting to become

The king of my castle

Do you know the feeling I’m describing?

To live under the thumbnail of a giant?

I am not so foolish as to bite the hand on which I am reliant

I’ll be compliant

I swear

Oh my bags are heavy

But my luggage is light

Soon I know I’ll be ready

With a steady hand to fight

I’m taking myself to a dinner

The last doggy-bowl supper tonight

And in the morning when I wake up

Tomorrow

I will release myself outside

But as of right now

I am stuck in the shackles

I am too weak

To put up with the battle

Even outside

Well I run in the shadows

Waiting to become

The king of my castle

Do you know the feeling I’m describing?

To live under the thumbnail of a giant?

I am not so foolish as to bite the hand on which I am reliant

I’ll be compliant

But I can’t take my eyes off the horizon

Cause I will be the first on off this island

Oh I will fight the giants, I will conquer them like David did Goliath

And topple a tyrant

I’ll break the silence

With barking and biting

I swear

When I get out of this house

When I get out of this house

When I get out of this house

When I get out of this house

When it rains and rains, it rains hard

It's never any different

Can't tell how any feel about me

I cannot say i wanna know

But what i can say is

I hate myself now

I hate myself now

And i hate myself now

With no reason why

I'm moving out

To find some peace and quiet

You know that i'll find it

I will

Cause I just don't know

Why I feel so alone

I would figure it out

If i only knew how

I hate myself now

I hate myself now

And I hate myself now

With no reason why

You would be surprised how much a round-trip ticket could change.

See, she might have light, but you could see it in her eyes there was pain.

So as the kids, they fell and cried, and walked through the turn-style it became,

the point in their lives where nothing would ever be the same.

They lived alone, and the city became their home once again.

And he lived overseas, with the rest of him family, again.

Well the older understood what the younger never could, such a shame.

Well, they played it well, they played it just like it was a game (just a game).

I’ve been going where I shouldn’t

In my mind it’s a frightening place

Where no one should ever go inside

Yet I remain there on my own terms

Like a fish back in water

And my heart stands still

As my world it gets smaller

And I can’t escape it

Believe me I’ve tried

I run for the exit

I’m missing the signs

And I wouldn’t wish this upon my worst enemy

No I would not

Then again I don’t believe that I have any

I’ve only got friends

If that’s what you’d call them

So like a car without a driver

I spin to a stop

But the motor keeps running

It spits and it coughs

She pulls the rug beneath my feet

Exposing floorboards, notches and creaks

She’s got her hands in my pockets, to rattle my keys

Trying to open up doors that I’m not sure I’m ready to see

She is consuming my thoughts

I’m pleased to admit

Won’t say she’s my sunshine

But closest to it

Now we are building a house, mortar and brick

Yet every day it collapses and takes a bit of me with it

Well I have stitched up some of my scars,

And I’ve always played, no matter my cards

And I have led my father out of some bars

And I’ve lost my faith in an all-knowing God

But I’ve never dealt with anything this hard

This hard

This hard

This hard

I’ve gotten so lonely

Sitting here on my own

So won’t someone please call me

I’d be happy to pick up my phone

Cause I guess who I thought i was

Is not the person that others see

My mirrors lied to me

I guess the world is breaking up with me

I better return my keys

I take it personally

How come no one told me

Surely I’d change my ways

Try to erase to a blank page, start again

Guide me back through grade school

Take a power tool to drill my brain

Whatever it takes

To reclaim the reigns of my fate

Take me by the eyes

And pull them by the sides

To replace, and restore my sight

Cause I guess who I thought I was

Is not the person that others see

My mirrors lied to me

I guess the world is breaking up with me

I better return my keys

I take it personally

Queen of convenience lives in a dream

Drives a red pickup

Steel submarine

Light as a feather

Float in the sweet breeze

But she operates like some heavy machine

My predictions

Biggest fears

Realized in fall this year

Chewed me up and swallowed whole

So she can laugh and smile

And wield her total control

Like some heavy machine

Like some heavy machine

Like some heavy machine

Like some heavy machine

Outside your window

She passes by for the last time

She’s going, and you know it

Nothing you can say

Will make a difference

She’s already made up her heart

Great plan for departure

So set gently my brother

And you will last so much longer

As you long for her

And how it was

Cave in, cave out, and

Tear out all of the pages

Since this time last year

Avoid the mirror

Where you see her there

Standing right beside

You should have taken that picture

So set gently my brother

And you will last so much longer

As you long for her

And how it was

Hold on, time out, breath in, breathe out

Hand off, back off, shut up, shut down

They’re better off without you ‘round

It was just fine before you came

And she won't smile the same

The pain you cause without the shame

Leave it like you found it, ah

And keep your head about you, ah

Oh they were all so right about you now

Absent minded, auto pilot

Intoxication, can’t fight it

Disarm desire and be quiet

Leave it like you found it, ah

And keep your head about you, ah

Leave it like you found it, ah

And keep your head about you, ah

Oh they were all so right about you now

So very right about you

Time to realize what you’ve become

I was a moth eating through fabrics

crawling through attics, drifting through traffic

I was a squid swimming through darkness

Rubber and heartless, shallow and harmless

But what were you before

But what were you before

the tidal waves came

And washed down our houses?

I was a mailbox, Swallowing postcards

Sending my regards, To Hollywood stars

I was a phone call, Always on standby

No one would reply, Just sever the phone lines

But what were you before

the tidal waves came

And washed down our houses?

I want some good dreams (good dreams)

So I can sleep through the night

Yeah give me good dreams (good dreams)

And I believe I’ll be alright

Follow the thread through the eye of the needle

And out of the cradle

But if this ghosts don’t wake me up and

My tired eyes could just stay shut then I could get some rest

And I’d sleep soundly again

I want some good dreams (good dreams)

So I can sleep through the night

Yeah give me good dreams (good dreams)

And I believe I’ll be alright

The shadows cast,

On the walls of the basement,

That are constantly changing

Picture frames that won't stay straight and,

The tiny sounds the spirits make,

Just keep me on my edge,

The wrong side of the bed,

So where does it end?

I knowingly pretend,

the thoughts when I’m awake are not the thoughts my soul intends.

I want some good dreams (good dreams)

So I can sleep through the night

Yeah give me good dreams (good dreams)

And I believe I’ll be alright

I want some good dreams

Deep inside through hallway doors

That lead into the dark

Lies a masquerade ball drowned in watered alcohol

I swim for days until I find

And Island in the sun

But it always sinks like stones into

An unforgiving pond

I'd send for help but no one would respond

So i walk around with plastered smiles

For the passers by can

Can they see how hard I try

Well there's no need to play this game

Relate and socialize

When i can see the judgment in their eyes

But i feel something happening

A changing in the air

The sun is rising

I don't seem to care

All my friends and family

Just can't get a hold of me

All the drawers are empty

All the closets shut

I'm coughing up my sanity

Down beneath the christmas tree

Climbing up the chimney

Through spiderwebs and dust

I’m on vacation at a swimming pool filled

With all the thoughts you’re not supposed to think

All the meanwhile my body tells me

I should learn to swim

When I’m quite sure I’d rather sink